Have you ever had such an intense dream that you wake up and can’t tell if it was real or not? I had one last night and I woke up actually crying. In my dream, we were at Jake’s mom and dad’s house opening Christmas presents and I was sitting on the couch bawling because nobody would acknowledge that our babies weren’t there. When I woke up, I couldn’t get it out of my head and it’s pretty much put me in an all day funk. The sad thing is, the dream isn’t that far from the truth with either of our families. It hurts.<\/p>\n
On another note, I have tried to avoid feeling like ‘why us?’ since the day the girls were diagnosed. I was able to redirect my feelings for quite a while, but they’re slowly starting to creep in. I know it is part of the grieving process to question everything surrounding the girls’ lives, but this is a hard one to get past. I wonder why our babies? why now? I read about negligent parents, I see them in the stores, I hear them yelling at their kids, and I actually get angry at them for not cherishing what they’ve got. I want to take them and put them in my place and make them see what they have and how thankful they should be. I want them, for just a tiny second, to feel the pain that I feel every single day, and I want them to know how lucky they are to have their babies. But, I know I can’t do that. I can’t force my opinions on somebody else. All I can do is hope that the change that our girls made in this world will some day reach them.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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