{"id":69,"date":"2009-06-27T15:06:00","date_gmt":"2009-06-27T15:06:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/2009\/06\/27\/10-months\/"},"modified":"2009-06-27T15:06:00","modified_gmt":"2009-06-27T15:06:00","slug":"10-months","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/?p=69","title":{"rendered":"10 Months"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Dear Sweet Girlies,<\/p>\n<div>Today would have been your 10 month birthday.  So far, today has been very hard, but it is early and I&#8217;m hoping things will get better.  We are going to go visit your trees later and water them.  It has been so hot here that I feel like they need tons of water.  I have a confession to make&#8230;I cry a lot more than I let on.  I cry in the shower; on the way to work; on the way home from work; in bed in the middle of the night.  It&#8217;s just too hard not to.  I just miss you too much.  I miss the familiarity.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>In one month I will be unemployed.  I am so scared, mad, hurt, you name it.  Work and routine is safe for me.  I know what to expect each day and I can pretty well time when I have flashbacks to you.  Once I am done working, I will have to figure out a new routine and it scares me to death.  What if I am out and I lose it?  What if I do something new with my life that makes me too busy, too distracted to think about you?  I wish I could rewind my life.  If I could, I would go back to October.  To the days when Daddy and I were both home with you and we would spend the entire day just hanging out as a happy family of four.  We would goof around and dance while we watched Ellen, we would go out for lunch and maybe run an errand or two, we would talk and laugh and play on the floor all afternoon.<\/div>\n<div><\/div>\n<div>I just want you to know how much I love you; how much I miss you.<\/div>\n<div>Love,<\/div>\n<div>Mommy<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Dear Sweet Girlies, Today would have been your 10 month birthday. So far, today has &hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-69","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized","latest_post"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=69"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/69\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=69"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=69"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=69"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}