{"id":60,"date":"2009-07-15T02:02:00","date_gmt":"2009-07-15T02:02:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/2009\/07\/15\/sneaky-tears\/"},"modified":"2009-07-15T02:02:00","modified_gmt":"2009-07-15T02:02:00","slug":"sneaky-tears","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/?p=60","title":{"rendered":"Sneaky Tears"},"content":{"rendered":"

Dear Sweet Girlies,<\/p>\n

I miss you so much today. I am so mad that you aren’t here with me. I don’t care what anybody else says, you belong here with me. I am so sick and tired of hearing that everything happens for a reason and that’s why you two left me. I don’t think any reason is ever good enough! Today I’m just mad because I miss you so much and life seems so unfair. I just want to scream out; I want to yell at anybody that will listen to me. I want to know who makes up these stupid ‘reasons’ and why I wasn’t a part of this decision.<\/div>\n
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I have these ‘episodes’ two or three times a day that I call sneaky tears. I will just be sitting there, minding my own business, and my tears will start. If I’m at work, I go to the bathroom or I go outside or I go up to my car and wait things out. If I’m at home, they usually sneak up on me in the shower or in the middle of the night in bed. I get them a lot when I’m driving too…I’ll hear a song on the radio or I’ll see a mom and baby walking the Fall Creek Trail. Obviously, tonight they came while I was watching TV. Most of the time, they are a few quick sobs and I pull myself together. Tonight they overtook me; they filled my whole body with such a deep sadness that I feel like I have a black hole digging through to the very core of my being. <\/div>\n
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Writing to you helps a lot. It makes me feel like I’m talking to you. It makes me remember when I would talk to you about all the amazing things that your fresh little lives had waiting for you. Mostly though, it makes me feel like you’re with me, if just for a second. I know you’ve left me physically, be please don’t ever leave my heart. I love you too much to let you go.<\/div>\n
Love,<\/div>\n
Mommy<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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