{"id":26,"date":"2009-12-31T01:44:00","date_gmt":"2009-12-31T01:44:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/2009\/12\/31\/grumpy-old-lady\/"},"modified":"2009-12-31T01:44:00","modified_gmt":"2009-12-31T01:44:00","slug":"grumpy-old-lady","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sweetgirlies.net\/?p=26","title":{"rendered":"Grumpy old lady"},"content":{"rendered":"

I am a grumpy old lady. I was reminded again today of how much I don’t like change. I think I just get too comfortable with routine and when that routine is changed up, it sends me spiraling downward. I started a new job today. It’s not the same. It isn’t the same beautiful drive downtown at my own pace, it’s a drive in heavy traffic and construction. It isn’t the same lunch, it’s a ‘get in your car and drive to a drive-thru instead of walking along the brick sidewalks of downtown’ lunch. It isn’t the same people, it’s people that don’t know me or my story.<\/p>\n

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I think one reason why I hadn’t posted in so long is because I got into a routine of being at home and being comfortable, surrounded by happy pictures and happy memories of my girlies. And today, during that awful drive, a lot of negative feelings came back.<\/div>\n
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In the first two hours of my new job I was asked if I had any kids. Before I got to work I told myself that I wouldn’t bring up anything about the girls for a while because I wanted my co-workers to get to know me first. When I was asked, I just kind of shrugged on the outside. On the inside, I was having a full-blown panic attack. How disrespectful of me to not answer that…to the person asking, but most importantly, to my girls. I just froze and didn’t know what to say. My face got hot, my palms got sweaty and all the air escaped my lungs. I just wish I knew what to say to people. I feel like when I answer that question, all I do is bring people down…but if they had only known my girls and what amazing, sweet babies they were, it wouldn’t be so sad.<\/div>\n
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So, I guess the question is, what’s the best way to answer such a difficult question???<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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