With me

Dear Sweet Girlies,
Today I would normally just write to you, Carynne, because six months ago today you left us. I had been thinking about this post for a few days. How hard it would be to have to acknowledge that you have now been gone longer than you were here. But something changed and today I don’t want to focus on my grief or sadness, I just want to use all of my energy for something else.

I know you girls are with me every day. I can feel you in the heat of the sun; I can see you in your daddy’s eyes; I can smell you when I go into your room. But today, I need to you to help somebody else. I need you to help me help them. I need you to help me know what to say and what to do and how to be strong for them.

I know a lot of times I’ve written about how alone I feel. What a horrible, exclusive club it is. The problem is, I never want this group of people to get any larger. I never want another parent to join us. Julie and I have talked a lot about how much we wish we didn’t share this in common, but I am so very thankful for her and her words at the most necessary times. Now, girlies, we need to go help another MoM. We need to take care of Joe and Brooke.

I love you.

Love,
Mommy

Comments

  1. pyjammy pam says:

    i was able to hold it together til i read this.

    ugh, too much sadness. 🙁

  2. Sonya says:

    Tell us what we can do to help this family out and it's done!!! They are in my prayers….just like you, Jake and the girls are every single day. I love you!!!!

  3. Anonymous says:

    This was a beautiful letter to your girlies.

    -Kirsten (multiple mamas)

  4. RoseMarie says:

    You amaze me with every post that you write. That was a beautiful thing for you to say/write. I think about you and your girls often. (RoAnt05)

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