Thoughts of you both….

Dearest Girlies~
It’s about 1:00 a.m. and I wanted to write because you both have been on my mind so much today. Six months ago, you left this world…I don’t even know how to follow up that statement. Mommy and I were talking just a bit ago about how hard that is to say out loud. Honestly, I’m finding it difficult to even write. There are times *and this is only in my opinion* when it seems like forever ago that you were here. Seems like another life time that I would stop by on my way home and say hello to my two favorite girls…well, Mommy would make that three I guess:-) Forever ago when I would cherish being 27 and single, spending my Saturday nights having cuddle time with you both. Then there are times when I feel like you are still here…literally!!! That I’m going to walk into your house, and there you’ll both be. Your presence is so powerful, I don’t think there are words to describe how it feels. Just like Mommy, I too see you in everything. Every flower, every rain drop, every babies face…every breath. I thought about you a lot when we were all on vacation in Myrtle Beach. Sitting on the deck, watching the ocean, I remember thinking that the water stretched on for what seemed like eternity. But, that somewhere out there was more land just slightly out of our reach. That’s how I feel about you girls. I know your out there, your just slightly out of our reach too. To say that I miss you is an understatement. To say that you have “changed” me, is to use a word that doesn’t even begin to describe what you’ve done for me. To say that my love for you continues to grow everyday…well, that doesn’t do it justice either. You both were a gift. Not only to Mommy and Daddy, but to all of us. You were the most precious of gifts…..
Girlies, there aren’t enough words in the world that can help explain how I feel. Just know that I’m here…loving you both, missing you both, praying for your family and offering myself to do anything and everything that you, Mommy and Daddy might ever need.
Rest in peace among the stars tonight Carynne and Sydney…knowing that right now you are loved more than any two people ever were.
Love always~
Aunti Sonya