Dear Sydney,
I was sitting down tonight to write you and I asked Daddy if he had anything he wanted to tell you. He wanted to tell you that he says hi, he loves you and he misses you.
Today was hard on me and your daddy. We were both pretty grumpy this evening so we went down to visit your trees. Normally visiting your trees really cheers us up and makes us happy, but tonight it was so cold and dark and we were so mad at the world that visiting your trees didn’t bring us to a happy place. I just stood there, in the dark, staring up into the sky being mad. I just don’t understand why this world works the way it does. I don’t understand why we have to go visit your trees instead of holding you.
As we were heading home I found a joke in reserves. Apparently, it was pretty funny because Daddy let out a pretty good chuckle. I told him that if I had to guess, I would bet that your laugh matches your daddy’s. Really joyful and full of spirit.
I wish I could hear that toddler laugh of yours instead of guessing what it would sound like. I wish I knew whether or not you had the same sense of humor as us. It makes me very sad to know that I only know the first 5 1/2 months of you. I wish that I had had more time with you and your sister. I wish that I could tell you, in person, everyday, how very much I love you.
Love,
Mommy
I wish you could tell the girls you love them and show them in person too. It's not fair. I just hope we can all show you in all of our own ways that we all love and care for you, and hopefully help find a way to hold you up.
love…
<3
I saw your blog featured on Multiples and More. I can't imagine (and selfishly, hope I never can) the grief and pain that you and your loved ones live with. Thank you for sharing your daughters' stories with a larger audience, and know that my thoughts are with you. Thank you, too, for all that you do to raise awareness.
Sydney and Carynne are absolutely gorgeous.
Came over from M & M. Thank you for sharing your story about your precious little girls! My heart aches for you, but I'm praying God fill you with comfort and peace. I know He will use your story to bless many. 'Sweet girlies', indeed! 🙂