Jake and I used to be very busy, social people. Even after the girls were born we were going, going, going. They went with us to Halloween parties, dinners out with friends, you name it and they were with us. They were such good babies through even our busiest days. They never fussed much and would usually just explore their surroundings until nap time. We were a very happy little family of four.
Lately, Jake and I have been staying in quite a bit. Like the rest of the country, we’re trying to watch our pennies. Staying in has some pretty good perks. I feel at peace at home. I feel like I don’t get a chance to miss the girlies as much because they’re always right here with me. They are surrounding me. I have noticed, though, that when we do go out, I very suddenly hit this point when all I want is to be back home, with my girlies. The urge to be home takes me by surprise. It happens if we’ve only been out for an hour or if we have been out all day.
Last Saturday we were gone the entire day and by about 8 p.m. I was ready to be home. The urge hit me like a panic attack. I just wanted to get home and be around the memories of my girlies. We had things we still had to do so I tried to push the urge to the back of my head and keep going, but I think being gone that long took a toll on me because we ended up not leaving the house at all on Sunday.
These urges to be home kind of scare me. I’m scared of becoming secluded and losing touch with my friends. I just don’t know what to do about it because on the one hand, I don’t want to become a hermit, but on the other, I find so much comfort being at home.
Do you carry a little photo book of the girlies? Or maybe even make a real small little blanket of some of their things and carry that in your purse. You could always print some of their pics onto fabric and make a mini quilt with a piece of their blankets and their pics. Then carry it in your purse and they will always be so close to you. Just an idea, not sure if this will help your outings, but it would be worth a try.
I know how you feel. Travis and I take Anakin's bear everywhere we go it seems. It's wearing one of his outfits. Maybe taking something of the girls with you will help.
Oh Brook, I can't even imagine, but it totally makes sense. Love to you…
I am like that too.. I hate being away.. and I hate being like that.. I feel like I have barricaded myself into this nice little comfortable, yet familiar rut..and its not just the absence of her..its the babies and bows and pregnant ladies everywhere.. I don't have advice on how to get past it,but know you are not alone 🙂 hugs..
(((HUGS)))