Sorry I have been slacking on writing anything lately…our lives have been turned upside down and I just feel like I haven’t been able to get my head on straight. The last few weeks have been very foggy for me. I have a million things on my to-do list and I just can’t find the motivation to do any of them. It is so hard to get motivated when you don’t know what your purpose is in life. I used to find purpose and fulfillment by being a supportive wife, an active employee, a contributing member to society and a loving mother. All but one of those has been taken from me and I just don’t know how to get back on track. I thought maybe I need to find my purpose somewhere else, but I don’t know where to start. I need some direction.
On another note, I had an awesome dream about Sydney last night. I dreamed that we were down in Bloomington walking around campus. She was older…maybe the age she would be now…13 months. She was just learning how to give kisses. I was carrying her on my right hip through the student union and she just kept giving me kisses. It was a very sweet dream…very vivid, and I loved every moment of it.
Wish I could give you a big hug in person, but this will have to do. (((hugs)))
I've been reading your blog for a while now and have never posted a comment, but I'm one of the MoMs from the MoMs board. I had to share something my husband told me. After my daughters were born I had a dream where my grandmother, who passed away 2 years ago, got to meet one of my girls. My husband told me that he believed when you saw a loved who is no longer with you in a dream that it is really them coming to see you. So I got to spend time with my daughter and grandma and you with Sydney. It always makes me feel happy to believe that.
I have been reading your blog for awhile now…I used to lurk on the nest and somehow found your blog but this is my first comment. I just want to say that I am so happy you had a lovely dream and I pray you have a gazillion more.
I'm glad you got a few kisses from your baby. I'll bet they were some of the best kisses you've ever received. ((hugs))
What a precious, precious dream.
I pray you find a new sense of purpose. (((HUGS)))
Hi Brooke –
I just found your blog. I'm sorry you are still having such a bad time. I don't know if you know but I lost a daughter. Whe was born with Angelmans Syndrome and she choked on a balloon when she was almost 6. I don't dream of her very often, but when I do it is SO special and so vivid and real, just like someone else said it is truly like a visit from her.
Treasure your dreams & memories 🙂
Kathy Williams