Girlies,
Nate and I were in the grocery store today and I saw a mommy with two little girls……this made me very sad. It really got me thinking of you, I just miss you so much. I get mad that I have to miss you because you should be here. Nate should be getting to know his girlfriends, it breaks my heart that he had such wonderful friends that he is too little to remember. We should be having play dates, me and your mommy should be taking walks together with our little ones in the stroller. Your mommy and I should be sharing stories about mommyhood and giving each other tips. Instead we are all in this fog and just when it gets clear enough to see, something reminds us of you and the clouds fill our heads with thoughts of missing you.
Nate now points to things and says “uh dat” which is “what’s that”. He pointed to the picture of you two that we keep on our fridge and said “uh dat” and I was telling him that you were his little girlfriends. I told him how he would go over to your house and play on the mat with you two. I told him how we posed you three in reindeer antlers to take Christmas pictures, I told him how pretty and sweet you were. He just looked at me and smiled as I was talking about you, almost as if he understood all of what I was saying. I love telling Nate about his girlfriends because I want him to know all about you, I just wish I didn’t have to tell him about you and that you were just here. I wish that he could “know” you and that you three could continue to make memories.
I don’t know what was different about today sweet girlies, but I’ve thought about you all day. I cried for you today, I love you! I really really miss you, I want to hold you and snuggle you today!
Missing you always~ Auntie Jess