Beautiful babies, we are all trying our hardest to stay strong for you. I’m not sure what it is but I’ve hit a rough patch where I’ve been missing you alot and any little thing is making me tear up. The other evening I was talking to Nate about the pictures on our refrigerator and I have a picture of you two on it. I told him about how you would play on the mat together, coo at each other, and that you were his girlfriends. His put his hand on your picture, looked up at me and smiled! We look at the pictures alot so maybe he does know who you are, but his reaction to you made me loose it.
I know it’s been rough recently for your Auntie Sonya as well. So many people love you and miss you. I feel bad in a way for being this sad sometimes because I look at your mommy and daddy, they are so strong. I know not a minute goes by that they don’t miss you. I know how much I miss you so it must be absolutely heart wrenching for them. I know you wouldn’t want us to be sad, you’d want us to continue on in your memory. But you were so wonderful and small that it’s impossible not to miss you.
I know I’m just your fake Auntie, but I don’t need to share the same DNA to know that we are family. I love you the same way I love my own blood related nephew, I thought I would maybe be a mother-in-law to one of you (if you married your boyfriend).
I can’t continue to ask why over and over again because I will never know why we are having to go through this. Never again in my lifetime will I ever experience something as profound as I have knowing and loosing you both. Although I continuously miss you I will stay strong; strong for your mommy, for your daddy, our friends, and myself. I will continue to look back and smile at the memories I have of you, I will smile when I think of the large impact you had in just a short time, and I will enjoy life with a new perspective of love and true friendship.
I was listening to some music and there is a song that’s fitting, it’s called “Stay Strong” by Delta Goodrem.
~GREAT BIG SNUGGLES~
Love Auntie Jess
prayers…and hugs to you.
beautiful words….my heart goes out to you all….