Pretty Day

Dear Sweet Girlies,
Thank you for giving us such a beautiful day today. This morning, your daddy and I woke up early and drove to Poppy and Nana’s to help with some yard work as well as open the pool. Poppy, Daddy and I worked on the pool all morning and then Aunt Gwen, Uncle Chad, Amelia and Sophia came over for lunch. We sang Happy Birthday to Gwen and it made me so sad that we didn’t get enough birthdays with you.

I know that you are with us wherever we go, but I can’t help thinking about you being physically present. I wish you could have felt the grass under your toes and the sun on your back. I wish you could have heard the puppies bark and felt their soft fur. I wish you could have tasted the cake and smelled the flowers. Mostly, I wish you were sitting on my lap, with your head against my heart, taking in all these little moments. I wish you had your long fingers wrapped around mine while we were singing. I wish I could look into those blue eyes and know that you are ok.

Do you remember when you would put your heads against our hearts? I loved to snuggle up to you and take in your sweet smell of baby shampoo. Sydney, I remember when you first started trying to turn your head, you would lay on my chest and look one way and then the other. I was so proud of you! Carynne, I think you were very close to doing the same, but I think you were so comfortable and content right where you were that you didn’t feel the need to look around as much. I would just hold you closer and let your breath fall on my shoulder.

It’s moments like this that I miss more than anything in the world. I would give my whole life just to hold you both for five more minutes. I love you both so much and I miss you a million times a day.

Love,
Mommy