Your boyfriend Nate turns a year old this month and as I plan his party I am thinking alot about you. Just like your mommy I am a scrapbooker and I’m not sure about her, but I’m always thinking ahead of the pictures I want to take that will make for a great book. I will get most of the pictures I want, but when I do get around to making Nate’s first birthday scrapbook there will be something missing. I had envisioned a picture of Nate with a girlie on each side sitting on his little picnic table, all three of you smiling with your Curious George birthday hats. Knowing that this won’t happen makes me sad, but knowing that he got to play with you the times he did makes me smile.
I think about you girls alot and the fact that you were so close in age to Nate makes it hard for me sometimes. As he hits certain milestones I can’t help but wonder what you would be doing now. I don’t mean to be depressing sweet girlies it’s just that I grew so attached to you in the short time you were here. When your mommy and I were belly buddies we bonded in sharing this first experience together, because of you your mommy and I are much closer friends. Having gone through that experience of first time mommy-hood with your your mommy makes me hurt for her even more.
I wonder if you come and visit because Nate randomly looks up at an area of the room and smiles, he babbles as if he’s talking to someone but it’s just a wall. Is that you? I can’t see you, but for no reason I feel the need to smile, I tell myself it’s you giving me a snuggle.
Thinking of you today,
Auntie Jess
that is very sweet {{hugs}}
I bet that is them…. I often think my babies see my father (who has passed). I find comfort in that at least.
thinking of you today and everyday