Dear Sweet Girlies,
I miss you. I wish the English language made words to explain just how much I miss you, but there aren’t any. Maybe it is because a feeling this deep just can’t be explained with words alone. I feel my sadness in my body. It beats at my head like a drum all day. I feel like it comes out of every pore on my body. It hides behind my eyes and sneaks up on me unexpectedly. I miss that you weren’t with us on Easter. You should have been there letting everybody soak you in and enjoy you.
I went back to work today and I got so sad because the last time I went to work, I got to come home to you. I remember coming home and trying to sneak some smiles out of you before it was time for your bottle. I remember laying on the couch with one of you nestled in the crook of my arm, watching the news. I remember both of you falling asleep on my and daddy’s chests because we were just too in love with you to put you in bed. We wanted to hold you and feel your breaths on us.
I wish this sadness would go away. I feel like I have so much to say, but I don’t want to say it to you because I want only happy thoughts going to you. So, for now I will just remind you of how much I love you!
Love,
Brook
brook…you sweet thing. praying for some peace for you…
Brook,
I have followed your blog from the very beginning and I am so heartbroken. I really don’t know what to say except for when you said you wanted to remind your girls that you love them. I don’t think they will ever need reminding Brook. I know they feel your love with every breath you take. I can’t even begin to imagine your sorrow, but just trust that you will hold them in your arms again one day.
I am so sorry…I know words can’t replace or make up for the pain your feeling…just know you have people thinking about the girlies and praying for your family
I wish there were words I could say to take away your pain. Just wanted to say I think of you and the girls every day.
Such a lovely piece of writing Brook – still thinking of you.