Dear Girlies,
I hope you are safe and holding hands today. I miss you so much. I love you both so much and today I feel robbed because our time together was too short. I have to be completely honest with you…I think your death has made me a little jaded. Daddy and I were sitting in a restaurant the other day and I was watching a young mom flop around her infant daughter. I was so mad at her for being so brash. Doesn’t she know how lucky she is? Doesn’t she know that each day is so incredibly precious?
I watch TV late into the night and it is all crap. Do you remember watching late night TV while I was feeding you? I wish I could get just a few hours of that time back, no matter how sleep-deprived I was. During these programs I just want to scream at the people for being so trivial. I feel like life is so much bigger than how people are living. Reality TV is crap. Get kicked off Survivor? Who cares? Do something stupid in front of the cameras on Real World? Get over yourself. Didn’t win some bachelor’s heart? Move on.
I’m sorry this letter is so negative. I am thankful that you have taught me to see how precious every moment of life is. I am thankful that you gave me and Daddy all of your smiles because when I think of them I am brought back to a happy place. I am thankful that you let me be your mom. Today I will be mad and jealous but tomorrow will be better. I love you both and I always will.
Love,
Mommy
hugs, I have been praying for you and Dh.
I just wanted you to know that because of your girls, I hug my son a little tighter everyday and I try not to get bogged down in negative feelings. Your family has taught me so many lessons and I think of you all often. Here’s hoping that tomorrow is a little brighter.
Your love the girls will always be bigger than everything else going on around the world.
Sending you my love and and a big ole’ hug.
Annie
Your little girls have touched so many… My husband and I think of you often and you are always included in my prayers. Annie put it so right… your love for those little girls was the best thing that you could have given them and vice versa.
Hugs…
sara
Brook- as always you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers. Thank you for continuing to be so honest!
I know there are many of us here that hold our babies tighter and don’t mind getting up 65 times a night because of your girls.
You’re feelings are understandable, you have amazing strength. Your girls would want you to be happy, to cherish every moment in their memory. I pray that you can overcome the negativity and enjoy the little things in life someday soon.
Your family really is an inspiration to us all.
Hello, I have continued to pray for you and your husband…there is no need for you to be sorry for sharing your feelings. They are real, they hurt, and it is important that you are able to voice those hurts. Please know that I think of you and your family MANY times a day, and each time that you come to my thoughts, a prayer is said.
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I hope you know that so many people have learned how precious each day is because of you and your girls. Wishing you love and peace.
Sara
Brook I just want you to know that you are still in my thoughts and prayers. I went through a rough pg and it made me appreciate the things in life so much more. You are so right about the trivial things that people get upset about. They need to grow up and realize that people have real tragedy in their lives. Your girls touched so many lives and I hope you can find peace.
HI Brook, I just found your blog few days ago, and although I never met them I miss the girlies too, I read every single post of yours and I cry with every word You write to them. I have a baby Sydney too (I use different names on my blog though) and I hug her now even more and I always tell her how much I love her. I know your girlies are safe and hold hands all the time but I still miss them too. I honestly can't even imagine the pain you are going through but I will help you on your mission against this disease if only by telling everyone I know to learn about it
Love, Molly …